Well, well. Huh. I cried myself to sleep yesterday night. So drama.

SOBS. I have no more contact lenses left. I used up my last pair today.

For Marketing, I went to the canteen to buy a drink. Guess who was standing / queueing up behind me? It’s Wen Hao. Any reason why he’s standing behind me? I gots no clue. This is the second time. Deja-vudu-dolls.

Marketing began quite nicely. You know the Year 3 IMD guy? Jared Tan? Yeah yeah, Stacey held some condoms! GASP! Which belonged to him. Good Lord! Omg, I thought he’s a virgin, please! Wow. You know what’s more surprising? He wears makeup! Like foundation, which he keeps in his bag.

He’s in my Marketing group project with…

Adeline Yeo Yi Ting
Lynne Wong Yong Lin
Tan Xiu Hong

Adeline is a voluptuous woman from my sub-empire FIERY!
Lynne is a very silly girl!!!!
Xiu Hong has nice teeth, but he’s so quiet, please.

During the break, Adeline and Cherine and I listened to Naziehah talk about her girlfriend and stuff. BLLL. AHHHH. She cried yesterday. So did I. So did Jay Lim. We’re all crybabies!!!

Yes, had Marketing discussion. Good Lord, Jared keeps surprising me. Condoms and makeup? He’s now officially my idol please. Plus his ang-moh speech. WHOA LORD.

Then Standley, Jayne, Cherine and I watched Josie and the Pussycat Dolls movie at the Marketing Class #2. I saw Angelina… urm… yes. Wendy Teo Wanqi, Rene. I LOVE TARA REID. Oh, yes, there was a song I knew from there. It’s called “You Don’t See Me”. It’s very touching la. Was Wen Hao in there? Lol. I think I saw him, I recall Luqman and some other guys… I probably saw Wen Hao la, but didn’t really pay attention to him. Why would I? I don’t even know him that well, Standlei.

Typo was basically draggy. Urm, I presented Clarence’s work, and it was quite nice really. Very creative. xD My work was trashei compared to the rest. =| I always feel like this la, probably because it’s true.

Yes. Then we had to make calendars. I think mine turned out fine. Not very creative, very femme. I used black and pinkei, the most cliche colours one could ever think of. I love to use pinkei as a design colour because Jigglypuff is pinkei — Allison Marie Low Shu Fen is Jigglypuff, with those beautiful round eyes and the wavy fringei.

I LOVE MAGGIE MARKET!

Why is Typo so demanding, ah? I’ll probably get a D+. Sobs.

TAMPINES MALL — Saw Standlei, Snorlax Ferooze, Bulbasaur Jayne… yes. After some silly crapping… I felt like hugging either Standlei or Jaynei. They both don’t want my hugs =( I wanna hold Standlei’s hand but he was being refusal-like.

We all took the train! Yay. ‘Cept Ferooze. Urm, Snorlax. Ok la, Ferooze. Ferooze should be an ice Pokemon ma. Ferooze = ice-sounding. So Cherine the Charmander the fire can melt him! But Magikarp Standlei can douse Charmander Cherine’s Flamethrower. Enough crap.

I wanna show my affection for Standlei, can!

We saw Eleazar on the train? Wow. What a coincidence. Talk about crap. Aww Standlei. I’ll still love you no matter what. Sayang me, sayang you. And Cherine was being so nice to me please. I’m so sorry I abandoned Standlei at City Hall. I feel so terrible. Oh darling.

If only
you pulled my hand to stop me from walking
instead of
saying and waving goodbye.

Even if I travelled in the same train with you..
it’s not like you’ll do anything especially romantic anyway.
I tried to make the first move this time.

OI. YOU STILL HAVE MY CLORETS. MOFO.

BEEP!

I’m going to Jurong Point at 8 PM tomorrow so if you’re up for a date, ring me up, biatch!!!

Shawn Paul Tan Tien Wee looks like Kero. Omg, suddenly I feel so scared of him. Separated at birth twin? SO DAMN KERO LA HIS FACE.

Ferooze typed on his blog, BOOZE:

“There’s this fucking irritating Malay guy in my marketing class who can stop mumbling to himself and kept saying well done, well done everytime the lecturer says something ‘interesting’ to him ar…”

Answer: Luqman.
Am I right?

Today’s Marketing was way topsy-turvy. Daniel Chia Siang Leng and Roseanne Moses Pitchay (with lots and lots of makeup) were in my group for the shoe discussion. We did a type of shoe — guess what. NEW BALANCE. What the hell. That’s my shoe!

Genevieve compared the Design boys to the Engineering boys — the dressing, Design boys are more… “friendly”. Cough. There’s this Year 3 IMD guy in my Marketing class, his name’s Jared Tan. People say his name like “Jar—- Ed.” Sigh. All the ‘Tan’ guys are so yummy. Shawn, Standley, Jared, Kai En… roflmao! Shawn Paul… urm. OMFG. He really looks like Kero leh. So whenever I see his face across the Typo room, I feel like asking, “Where’s your Colin…!!” Haha. I’m weird.

If you put 3 of the most expressive, talkative girls in my Marketing class
:
1) Cherine Ann Yew
2) Adeline Yeo Yi Ting
3) Naziehah Hatta

You will get lots of seafood, seafood and seafood.

I can go into comatose if I eat a prawn.

I think I saw the name “Pepper See” in today’s Phua Chu Kang. Huh. Wtf.

Oh. And Primero’s gone. YOU STUPID GAY GUYS. YOU ALL NO HANDPHONE IS IT. Sigh.

Shawn came today. Whoa. His smell is barely there. I showed him and Standley a yellow spot in the boys’ toilet and they all scream “SPERM! SPERM!” So damn sick. I haven’t said 2 words and they all think *I* made the sperm. Urgh. Gross. Why is it always me? I didn’t do nothing.

Bulbasaur, who is Jayne, was a bit slow on what the boys tried to say to her. Sigh. Jayne — the little pervert. She’s still a Bulbasaur. You look at a Bulbasaur, you look at a Jayne Yong. Bulbasaur, return!

Gotta catch’em all.

Nicholas is such a great person! Woohoo. And Charli offered me sweets! Lynne too!!! Eh, you’re all so sweet. Zhang Rong talked to me! Whee. And we all played Maggie Market. I had the utmost fun, utmost cute, utmost happiness of the best time of online kawaii games created, please.

I might, I say might, get an F for my Typo Assignment 1A. I’d better do it right. Otherwise.

Oh Amanda.

I’m not Cherine’s bodyguard, please. It just so happens that we’re sharing 5 of 7 modules this semester.

Oh, Jayne almost sang that beautiful follow song.

Why the fuck is Standley assuming I’m in love with Wen Hao? Well, if we ever exchange sentences, that would be quite nice.

Anyway, Shawn was so cute today. Sigh. Sweety pie!

Meryl Joan Lee. Sigh. Who ask you to be in RJC. Not only will you deteriorate in your studies, you’re in a school were no one fucking watches TV. Mug mug mug like robotei. Who thinks the JC will vote for you?

Marketing was quite fun. I guess. Until we had to get into groups of 4 or 5. So there were 3 groups of 5 people. Then I was leftover. Sigh. I’m always the fucking left over. The outcast. It’s always been like that since secondary school. Huh. Sigh. I feel so left out. Sad. A bit betrayed?

Did Daniel want me? No.
Roseanne? No.

Sigh. I feel so useless. Invisible. It’s really heartbreaking when no one really wants you. I hate this feeling la. My ego has been shattered once more, after how many months of trying to build it up. It’s very very disheartening to have no one to want you —

I have no one.

So painful.

Can?

See who’s the loner now. See who’s the outcast. See who everyone loves to hate. See. See me. See. Me. See me now in my fucking glory la.

It’s a reflection … of how everyone hates me. No matter where I go, what school I’m in, I just have to accept the fucking truth that I’m alone and there’s no one I can turn to.

God!

Why can’t God give me an angel in the form of a friend! Why does everyone hate me? Since they doubted me, I, myself, am having self-doubts. I keep asking myself what the hell is wrong with me today. Am I such a turn-off? Maybe I’m just a burden.

I’m too sad already. I don’t have the mood to continue.

I feel so hurt.
You know why?

My most recent Friendster testimonial was given on 30/5/2005.

That’s like, 13 fucking months ago.
13?
Suay!

No one leaves me a testimonial.
I feel so hurt.

I write long long testimonials to lots of noids and I get what in return? Shunning and gunning and mama shot me down, bang bang, my baby shot me down?

NEW BLOCK!

So exciting. Lol. I was the first to reach Marketing class, then I had small chat with Genevieve or whatever her name was. Jocelyn was third. Wow, was she surprised. And, we had to sit by alphabetical order.

I feel so bad because I separated Daniel and Jocelyn’s love for each other.

Chan
Chan
Cherine
Chia
Ed
Fong
–
Lim

Yes, I’m sitting beside ruler, which makes us Broad Ruler. Wahoo. Excitement.

Sigh. Lung Wen Hao. I keep catching him staring at me. Twice. Good Lord.

Cherine came late la,
but
I went to eat with her
and Ann and Ann’s hot friend sat beside us,
some kind of assistant lecturer who was so hot.
Omg, his piercing.
His hair.
His face.
Whispered to Cherine…
“SOOO HOTTT!”
I like nottee guys!
Especially nottee young assistant lecturers.

I purposely went to the Design Store Room today and he did something so damn nice to me la! I’m super grateful to him, can! Can almost say I owe my life to him!

Me: I’m so sorrrrry.
Him: Nah it’s OK.
Me: I feel so eeeeevilllllll.
Him: No laaaaaa.

Wa. How the heck did I manage to make eye contact with him! He’s so cool, can! So damn suave, man. I bet he’s a gigolo. And that’s meant to be a compliment.

How do you identify him? He’s the one who eats with Eric or Ann. He practically lives in the Store Room, can!

Siew Yun (Cloud in ‘links’), Jocelyn and me got grouped as Consumer research. 2 Rulers and 1 Cloud. So fun! I got to do the Teenage-Adult group. Wa. The IMD Third-Year guy is so pro. I admire his note-taking. Really.

Haha. Very crap. Especially Lynne. Whee. Rot at McDonalds.

I really love Marketing. I have no idea why. This doesn’t mean I’ll do well in it though. I think I might fail Marketing, but hell, yes, I love it like mad.

Yes, and down to the canteen again. There Standley was!

Oh, and Darren too. Hey. I shook Darren’s hand. FIRMLY, might I add. Yay. And, yes, Darren smells good. I have a smell fetish, I guess. Cherine was saying so much negatives about BaPho to him, I assume. So fun please??

Bulbasaur loves S&M please. She hit the metal ruler on my breast. She’s crossing Andy (check ‘links’) territory here!!!

Roamed around school la. That’s when I went to meet the nottee suave guy. But you already know what happened, I told you already.

Typo class was fun. My classmates included the beautiful Wendy, the cute Allison Marie Low Shu Fen, Elizabeth Tan, Shawn Paul Tan Tien Wee, Pepper See Shumin, Nicholas Lim, Shona, Vivien, Alia, Deniece Tan, Stacey Arianelle, Charli Chan Keat Kee, Zhang Rong, Lynne, Lim Siew Yun, Cherine Ann Yew, Bernice blah blah.

Sat next to Nicholas, because he’s a Libra.

=)

He taught me how to do Freehand MX. Haha. I’m so damn grateful la.

Went to Bookshop for a short while, see see, then I saw Ferooze, Standley and Bulbasaur. It was all merry and nice but eh. Heck. Ok, back to class.

I took a peek at Vanderbeek’s Bapho class. Hmm. Saw Benjamin Soh, Allison Marie Low Shu Fen, Elizabeth Tan… mmhmm.

Yay. Today I went dating with my boyfriend, Standley!

Yes. Dating.

So I met him at Jurong Point, he came 20 minutes late, but I don’t blame him. Those damn MRT trains take damn long. Yes, he travelled from town, to meet his friend, hmm, suspicious, eh.

So since I was early, I watched all these Bengs and Lians dance PARAPARA, touching their silly hairs in between sequences. My jaw dropped. I tried Para a few times before and I feel like, so noob.

OMG, Standley, I say to you once more, it’s rare to see a hot guy in Boon Lay. Goodness, they make me feel I’m un-hot too. Jesus.

So him and me, yes, it was just the two of us, went to eat at Banquet. I ate some kind of spaghetti with that black sauce thing — I forced myself to eat the veggies please. Yuck. And darling ate A LOT, kay! Wanton-like noodles, but I don’t know the exact term. Actually, I wanted to eat Japanese but I forgot the dish name. Dots.

Then he talked to me about yesterday’s meeting with a stranger. Am I daring? No. I just take risks. My darling is so overprotective over me! He scared I kena rape. No lah. I only allow Standley to rape me, please!

Yes. Then we all went shopping some more.

Standley got the calorie-packed sugar gummy-type bears while I asked him where the shampoo was. I TRICKED HIM. I actually wanted to buy deodorant because I was running out. I chose the man-smelling one because I never tried it before. Nivea Dry or something like that. WOOT. I love spray deos. Rolling ones are soooo secondary school.

We walked walked and talked talked and window-shopped-shopped. Standley got himself a beautiful shoyt (that’s New-York for ’shirt’) which I hope he wears soon. I love it, so much, can!

Then he wanted to transfer money from the Cashcard or whatever shit like that.

Lol. I think we spent 2 to 3 hours at JP. Oh I wished it was longer. I wanted to watch a movie with him, but darn my finances. I just *HAD* to buy the fucking deo to counter my BO. Nevertheless, I loved every single minute of walking and going up and down the stairs.

He’s 66 kg. Goodness. I’d kill myself if I was that heavy. Ferooze, understand, please, that I’m small, kay.

Yes. We talked about Singapore Idol and Jocelyn Fong. Goodness, Standley. He has such evil thoughts — he might go to hell. While I go to heaven! =) And whoever said Regina was that innocent?

We took Bus 174 together… and as he departed… we…kissed.

Well, not really.

He actually sent a blowing kiss to me.
Wahaha.
So sweet, can!!!
I swear, the ah ma was looking out the window and saw him do that to me while I “meowed”.
I would have sent a flying kiss back but the door closed then the bus moved. Haha. Dumb.

Go home!

Desperate Housewives gonna start. New block tomorrow. Goodnight.

This morning at 4 to 6 AM I conversed with a guy named Sidney ([Reuben] Lim), from IRC. We decided to meet at 3 PM to go to Town for whichever reason, I’m still unsure.

Look at me. Going out with strangers from IRC. Tsk. Is that allowed? He says he’s young-looking? Then what am I? His voice is deeper than mine? Oh. He’s 21. He’s an NS man and Primero Ang is his co-worker. Civil servants. Wahaha. When he expressed his love for Temasek Poly’s Visual Comm (I never told him I was in that course), I was freaking out, because that was the course I’m in right now! Oh, he’s a Sagittarius please… like both my parents.

Before I go any further, I’d like to tell you he’s bisexual.

Actually, he was such a sweetheart to come meet me at Yishun la. I was so touched. Hougang to Yishun via Orchard. Aww. He looks so different in real life. It was a mutual feeling. Then his (as described by him) “hot” friend came and shook my hand. Good Lord, it was a firm handshake.

His “hot” friend is a VSC drop out. Now he’s pursuing music. Jesus.

Ok, urm. I acted all weird and uneasy and uptight. But, hey, that’s normal. I was like that during CampIgnite too, and look at me now. Loose, crazy and a fucking stalker. Woo.

The both of us went to Burger King first, where I didn’t eat anything, as usual. Sid ate weirdly — he finished his french fries, but not his burger. But I thought all NS men ate a lot. Wait wait. He’s a skinny NS man.

Hoo-hoo-HOO!
(My amazing gay chant!)

Then went to windowshop, HMV… aww.
He kept on guessing my race.
I asked him, “Is it not obvious?”
Loves it.

He called me his korkor, but I think it’s otherwise. Lol. Me? A korkor. That’s right. To my brother and sister. But not to him — he’s 4 years my senior.

I don’t think I see much explosive chemistry going. But I’d still love to go out with him. Speaking of Sidney, Nicole Kidman and Keith Urban got married in Sydney, Australia. Isn’t that just special?

I wanna tell you I’m in love with the little girl from Silent Hill. =)

I went to Tampines Mall today to meet the Wildcard contestants.

Lol. I could hear the sound system way back in the toilet when I was doing my business. The whole notion of it was hilarious, please.

Yay. I got free posters. Then I went to Open Plaza and all the contestants came out to the stage. Omg, their faces had thousands of layers of makeup.

Gayle Nerva! Jay! Mathilda! Siew Woon! Norman! Primero! Geraldine!

Wait, where Meryl?
Guess what.
She was on medical leave.
Aww. WTF, right?

The crowd consisted of prepubescent girls that are lower in height than me. Of course, there was a handful of cute guys (including yours truly) and some big, black ones. Eee. Do I sound mean? =|

Primero is so hot. GO PRIMERO.

He’s my idol.

He taught all these 11-year-olds the phrase, “What the fuck!” when it was his turn to talk. Of course, the ‘fuck’ part was mouthed instead of spoken.

Haha. He’s my idol.

Why do people hate him?
He’s so lovable.
Like me.

He says that he’s like nerdy, skinny and short.
Like me.

His name has 7 letters.
Like me.

His name is unique.
Like mine.

He sings like crap.
Like me.

He likes to keep his breath fresh.
Like me.

I swear, just now, he was chewing his gum incessantly on stage like a hungry foul-stenched vulture. Primero is my new obsession. Like Gayle. If Primero doesn’t get into the Top 12, he’ll probably go back in modelling. God forbid his ousting from Idol.

Primero Ang. Oh you hot slut.

If you think he’s not hot, I’ll fuck your parents upside down on an icecream stick on top of a burning fire as hot as desire then ask all the Temasek Poly archers to shoot poison arrows into their groins.

I didn’t get an autograph… so disappointing. I was so close to surrendering all my mints to Primero. Wahahaha.

Never mind. There’s always next time. Top 12 event, more contestants, more signatures.

Hi hi darlingsss. Today was a very very unlucky day. Let me summarise all the bad things that have occurred to me today.

I’m SO SUAY.

Emilee and fat Mathilda got into the Top 12? WTF. Stupid Singaporeans. Emilee has no vocal ability. My penis got more vocal ability la.

I was expecting Meryl / Charmaine. Shock.

Good news? PRIMERO IS IN THE WILDCARD! OMG OMG OMG! Must meet him! And confess my fatal obsession over his likeness of Andy Teng.

GAYLE IS ALSO IN! I wanna get high with our Filipino fusion! Mabuhai, darling. Magal ng pinoy ingit aye tagala ngayon!

MERYL IS ALSO IN! I wanna get some JC hooka butter on my wholemeal-Poly-bread of me.

3/8…

3/4 into the Top 12.

Not bad, right?

Ok, fine. I’m a shallow whore. All 3 of them are hot. So? I’m hot too. But do you see me voting for myself?

Oh Lord, my voice is so sore from all that shouting when Primero got in. YESSSSS!